Days 91 and 92

This post will about bring me up to speed (real time) with the blog.  It is getting more difficult to log every days activities, mainly because the days are so monotonous lately I feel like I’m telling the same story over and over—a lot like the movie Groundhog Day.  I swear I even wake up in the morning to the same music playing on the radio… oh wait… that one is mostly true since we do sleep to some comforting music made to help you sleep I do wake up to the same thing playing over and over again!

Day 91 (Tues) nothing major to report other than it was a very difficult day for my wife, but I felt like I had a pretty good day.  We have been a bit more lax with our food intake and have allowed ourselves some—although very little—leeway.  I’m not sure what the issue was with my wife It, it was raining, she didn’t get a run in this morning, her kids at school were fairly awful—which I guess has more to do with coming off of spring break (and as some teacher swear, the rain) than anything else.

We have both decided that we do enjoy our cacao pows VERY much.  The recipe is listed on the recipe page but we do substitute some items on some days rotating (avocados, steel cut oats and quinoa) and often adding maca powder with hemp hearts.  Any way we make it we love it.

Still can’t believe we are continuing with very little variation—still want to see full relief come but not sure how strict to be.

Day 92, Wednesday, again not much to report although it was a very tough day for me—I actually think I felt more anxiety and depression.  During these times of reflection I focus on too much of the negative that’s happening and not enough positive.  I try every day to focus on the positive (at least to a point) but when the negative does happen I let it get me down.  It makes me realize that I must have been more depressed before beginning this journey than I realized.

Life goes on and—overall—continues to get better.  I notice the ups and downs and sometimes they are pretty extreme, but everybody deals with this to a point and I can’t expect to be rid of every negative feeling there is.  I do hope and believe that my ringing can and will go completely away as well as the few lingering health concerns I have but suppose it will take more and more time.