30 days is suppose to be a milestone time for people doing a
candida cleanse—I need t talk about how great I feel and the changes I have
noticed that I really haven’t posted here.
For as long as I can remember I have had anxiety, which has also
included shyness and some panic attacks.
However; more frequently some depression has kicked in (something that I
didn’t realize until very recently).
I also didn’t realize how much worse these symptoms were
getting. Generally in the past when I
would notice symptoms or they would aggravate me more than normal I would go to
the doctor to see what he/she could do (I really did want to know what was
going on). The whole cycle ensued—a
bunch of tests some results that show everything is fine and here is another
pill, or try to exercise more or try this or that.
In the last 2 years it had gotten so bad that all the
symptoms were aggravated and I could not find relief anywhere I looked—and believe
me… I’ve looked just about everywhere. I
don’t imagine I’m the only one, but for me there is almost nothing worse than
being told nothing is wrong with you, but then have to think then whey can’t I
do this or that. If this is all in my
head and my brain and I am in control of my brain and—perhaps more
importantly—feel in control of my brain, then WHY CAN’T I FORCE MY MIND TO
CHANGE THE WAY IT FEELS!
I’ve mentioned before that I first started to look at diet
and decided one year ago to try a more whole foods based diet, but I never
really cut out sugar—which seems to be a big culprit in my symptoms. Since the beginning of the year I have cut
out almost all forms of sugars (including fruits, raw honey and stevia). I was initially very skeptical about how this
would work; after all; why would natural fruit sugar be bad?
The results have surprised even me and I wasn’t until I
looked back at the beginning that I really understood how much has
changed. My anxiety is almost gone (and
this also includes the little panic attacks I would have), the depression is
gone or near gone, my energy levels are greater than I ever remember, my
prostate issues are subsiding and I have been able to go about 5 nights total
(maybe a bit more) without having to get up to go to the bathroom, my sinuses
are clearer than ever (I can breath so deep) and one that I didn’t realize is
my memory is coming back.
I obviously have a good enough memory to make it through law
school and pass the bar but I really have struggled for a long time with
remember names and dates (birth dates etc.).
However about 2 weeks ago I was studying for Sunday School and realized
that I was more focused than ever and I was actually remembering what I was
reading. What was more is I have some
families that I visit with in our congregation and have never been able to
remember their kids names (I had a hard enough time remembering the parents
names—I would just have to look at the kids names before going in and then I
could remember them long enough for the visit).
It was PATHETIC. Well
out of nowhere I looked at the list of names (as I usually would for a visit)
and then went in. I realized that I
didn’t have trouble recalling them as I talked with them we even had
conversations that day about when each family members birthday was. When we left I realized that I not only
remembered all their names, but their birthdays as well (mom, dad and 3
kids). I also remembered a list of names
of men in our congregation that had to help me (only 5 names). Now this may not sound like much, but I had
not been able to remember more than 3 names from memory of all the men in that
particular class and now I was remembering with no problem.
Another “side affect” if you want to call it that, is that I
have been more assertive and more decisive.
If there is somebody I need to talk to or something I need to do I just
do it. Before there would be a big
anxiety fight about how to go about it, or what I needed to do or reasons not
to do something or call somebody (all legitimate reasons in my mind). But now I realized that I wasn’t hesitating
at all. Some will say—and have said—that
this reaction is all in my head. I’m
willing to admit the possibility.
BUT if it is then why hasn’t anything the doctors tried over
the last 20 years worked for longer than a day or two, why would my mind choose
this to work when I was really just ready to give up and not choose something
prescribed by or suggested by the doctor when I REALLY WANTED IT TO WORK. I started questioning whether I was just
being a baby or lazy or was cursed or was just downright weak; but the longer I
do this the more I realize—if this is crazy and I feel the way I do then I
don’t want to be sane! I feel like I was
finally lead to a path of healing and have been very blessed that my wife and I
have been on-board together.
I guess there are plenty of people—mostly men from what I
hear—out there that refuse to help their spouse deal with diet changes not
believing that it will do anything. If
it supposedly doesn’t work or if there I no evidence then why do people like me
feel different and better? Do we not
count as evidence or does evidence just count in medicine when it is something
the doctors decide they want to run through trials and to hell with what the
quacks in alternative medicine are doing.
Perhaps that is part of what’s wrong with our health care system, we
have a bunch of pompous doctors at the head of the organizations making crucial
decisions who refused to look upon the staff because of how easy the way feels!
Since we found out we could have eggs we decided to make
them this morning and had some toast to go with it—all I can say is MMMMMMMM
MMMMMMMMM MMMMMMMMM! I forgot how much I love them. We didn’t let it stop there though we still
had the steel cut oats and our green drink same as yesterday. Busy, Busy day!
Energy was really good day was good and I am truly realizing
changes in me that have me feeling like I haven’t felt since I was in high
school or sooner—really hard to explain—I really don’t do it justice in my
explanation above and it probably sounds crazy, but it is true!
Lunch was a great mixture of quinoa, lemon herb chicken (just chicken, lemon juice, basil and sea
salt) and some avocado mixed together all over a salad! Some times I feel like I wouldn’t miss eating
another fast food item or something with sugar and other times it is all I
crave. We had to go get some strong
covers for our iPhones so they don’t get scratched (especially the new iPhone
5!) Well as we were driving into
downtown I started to crave my favorite burger joint and that was all I could
focus on—times like those I am glad I went with a program!
Dinner was a wrap and one of our shakes (chocolate M’Lis
mixture mixed with almond milk, stevia and cacao powder then blended together
with ice). We went to a high school play
tonight so my wife could see some of her former students perform and so our
kids could have a great time—both had a ball (and I did to).
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