Another great day of relief.
My sinuses are still back and forth, but I’ve felt action in there for
the last 3 days and it’s good. It’s kind
of hard to explain some of these symptoms but I thought it might be worth me
trying to do it the best I can. It feels
like a small man is standing on the bridge of my nose and moving the pressure
of his body weight from one foot to the other and continuing to do this—almost
like a pump trying to get something to come out.
While this is happening occasionally what looks like
straight water will come out my nose—it’s not a lot, but it’s enough to feel
like something is happening. Other times
there seems to be more mucus in the back of my throat that I have to clear,
which again is not a ton, but it happens enough times a day that I feel like it
is something good.
The only way I can describe my mood is happy. When I was taking some medications it is a
feeling that I would feel on occasion, but it’s not the same. I never really felt completely like myself
when taking any medication (I felt like it helped and I was still myself
[didn’t feel like I was out of my body or anything] but it never felt
completely “real”—almost like I was feeling a way I wanted to feel, but knew it
would go away; which it always did.
The other thing about the medication is once I took it
for a while the affects wore off and I
was back to all my anxiety or depression or whatever, but it was worse. While happy is how I describe it, it is more
than that—part of “happy” is feeling more confident, secure, assertive,
forthcoming, commanding, aware… and the list could go on. I love talking and people I talk to probably
think I am on something or don’t know what to think.
The last time I remember feeling some of how I feel now was
when I was a little kid in elementary school before all the worries of growing
up kicked in—before I had time to realize the bad that is in the world. It is such a change that as I type this I am
having a hard time believing it, but there is no other great explanation—this
must be the answer to many prayers I have said for a number of years… I feel
more like (ME)—and I know it’s me because I’m not taking any medications to
feel this way. I do still feel a sense
of urgency and concern for my family, but I just feel HAPPY!
To save time—and to try to make it to church on time—we
didn’t have steel cut oats this morning, but did have eggs and turkey sausage
along with our green drink—lucky ingredients today were: spinach, kale,
romaine, cucumber, lemon, distilled water, but I did add parsley to the mix to
shake things up a bit. Church was great!
And I ended up going to visit a few families with one of the youths of the
congregation where I again noticed the changes in my—more talkative, better
memory, calling each person of the family by name.
We dropped by one family and the mom was out shoveling the
drive-way; we asked if she needed help and she insisted that she didn’t but I
noticed the youth was ready to jump out.
I was getting ready to leave, but thought to ask him if we should help
her; he said: “I want to” so I said “let’s do it.” He jumped out and grabbed the shovel from her
and I grabbed another shovel from the garage and we shoveled the little bit
remaining on her drive-way. I did it so
quickly that I forgot about my back—let’s just say I feel the pain tonight and
am slightly worried about tomorrow morning.
I had a quick lunch once done with visits—leftovers from
last night’s feast: vegetable medley with—of course—lemon juice, basil, sea
salt over peppers, onions and tomatoes along with the left over lemon herb
chicken—mmmm mmmm mmmm good! A great 2 ½
hour Sunday afternoon nap ensued then a great baked potato dinner with some
make shift sour cream made with yogurt, garlic and some seasoning to give it
the sour cream flavor (not exactly the flavor, but good enough to eat),
especially since we topped it with ground turkey seasoned with lemon juice,
basil and sea salt.
I made an awesome family calendar to use on our new iPhones
for keeping track of our schedule—well it is actually a combination of multiple
calendars. But, to make a long story (4
hour story) short I made it so either my wife or me can schedule an appointment
for any member of our family and the other can see it on our iPhones or iPads
and each family member is assigned a different calendar—may not sound like much
to some, but I have been out of the game for so long it felt good to do it.
My wife is doing almost as well as I am—I say almost because
it is hard to be sure, but she is exhuming more positivity than I can recently
remember and is even less afraid to talk to people than I ever remember as
well—it is AWESOME! It is hard to feel
the way I feel today and not thank God for leading us to this path of healing
and for helping us see the effects of our choices so quickly—so… thank you
Heavenly Father!
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