OK, this is getting a little difficult. It doesn’t seem to take long after what feels
like a pretty big step until I have a bad day… Today was a bad day. I’m working on clearing my ears out and woke
up feeling pretty good so I decided to do another ear cleanse this morning and
thought it was doing great. My son sat
down to watch a movie this morning and wanted me to sit down with him. It didn’t take too long before I actually
fell asleep while he watched—which is the problem with slowing down (at least
without doing something like reading a book with him).
I woke up hoping that my ears were going to do their magic,
but instead this time they felt worse—and in fact my whole sinuses felt more
pressure and I’ve had a headache all day long.
I started this journey with the hope of my symptoms being done within 2
months and I was well on my way at the beginning. It felt so great every day—it felt like a new
wonderful adventure and things changed and improved so quickly it was
AWESOME! But… now, it doesn’t feel that
way, the changes still come but they are slow and while there are great days
the crappy ones feel really crappy.
We did make eggs with toast made from the bread I made last
night and that part of the day was wonderful—but the day did start out
great. It didn’t help that I got a call
from my mom today and she said that my dad was in the hospital and he wanted my
brother and me to go see him. This is
strange because my dad NEVER wants to go to the hospital, so I assumed
something terrible might be wrong. I
asked my mom: “Does he want us to come
now?” She said… “yeah, if you can.” “Of course I can” I said. I was thinking that I only asked because of
how stubborn he sometimes is about these things.
Everything was fine, which is why this wasn’t posted at the
beginning of the post; but it also indicates how terrible this day has been and
how long it’s felt—I didn’t remember until posting this that he was actually in
the hospital today and not yesterday!
Well… I say fine, but he did
actually have a kidney stone which was ready to pass into his bladder (but I
guess it wasn’t too big so their were no really worries). He has had a kidney stone before (a bigger
one actually) but didn’t think it was that this time because of how much it
hurt. It was a relief to hear that it
was a kidney stone—which isn’t fun, but it is definitely NOT DEADLY! We want to have him around for a long, long
time.
After leaving I decided I should take my wife and sons to
see him tonight so I called my mom and asked if we could bring them dinner—and
then spent the next 2 hours making sure it was “perfect.” Spaghetti with chicken meatballs from http://www.elanaspantry.com/spunky-coconuts-chicken-meatballs/#comments
which were AWESOME! Although we used our
Blend Tec to chop the chicken and it ended up turning it into something that
resembled the pink slime that was so popular in the news a while back. My dad must have thought they looked crazy
too because he asked if they were tofu meatballs—he must also think we are more
crazy than we feel like we are, but I guess he still is OK with us coming over
to eat so we must not be too bad!?!
The REALLY bad part of the day came after dinner and after
getting the kids to bed. I started to get upset at how I was feeling and just
had a full blown pity party in my head.
I did tell my wife how I was feeling and expected her to say that she
felt the same way… but she didn’t. That
is the great thing about our relationship.
When she is weak it seems that I’m strong and when I’m weak it seems
that she’s strong—there are rarely any days where we’re both weak (which is
darn good because I may have been typing this from a Denny’s or an iHop or some
other place—or I guess more likely not typing at all because I may have given
up).
I have felt a few days during this cleanse that I do just
want to give up but now that the “cleanse” part (or at least the official
cleanse part) is done, we are left with deciding what we are going to
continue—which at this point is about everything we’ve been doing for a
while. Did I mention it was a bad day
today!
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